“Soliloquy of a road musician”-by Jim Hurst
Being a road scholar -
which is additional learning to this high school graduate - is something I am
proud of, even if it is entirely possible and highly probable that I will never
receive any certificate of completion or feel that I’ve ever learned enough to
stop. Willingly at least.
Wonderful experiences,
beautiful scenery, great food, new acquaintances & old friends… are all
part of this wonderful journey. So are complications and frustrations,
disappointments, travel planning, replanning, and replanning, fatigue, pains,
colds, profit & loss, and loss. Many, many more things than I need to share
here go into and alongside my ongoing efforts to be a musician, singer,
songwriter - creative artist-at-large.
Of course leaving home
is part of this. Time away is hard, very hard, sometimes excruciating, because
when I commit to any dates - I follow through with that. My wife and kids have
had to commit to it with me in that sometimes dad was not home. They allowed me
to do what I needed to do, and sometimes felt disappointed I'm sure. But they
never asked me to stop. Wow. I've always felt supported trying to play music,
something I feel I was built for... but I do regret being away for a few
important things. I say 'a few' because I was there for most of them.
Playing music for a
living is something I really never planned for... no, really. I saw myself as a
woodworker, carpenter, factory worker, and truck driver, and played music on
the side. That is what I thought was the best way to live my life, to be a husband
and father. I sometimes wonder how things would be different if I had the
'drive' early on to do what I do now. If I'd have moved to Nashville 10, 15,
even 20 years earlier than I did... how would it be different? How would I be
different? Musically, who and what would I be now and where would I be? Would I
be a better musician, artist, songwriter, composer, producer, performer? Would
I have health issues? Honestly, I don't really want to know the answers to
those questions... really. I do wonder though, if creatively I'd be more
advanced and/or happier.
Who I am now is fine
with me. Yes, I've learned from mistakes (mostly) and I have followed
opportunities to be where I am, and the opportunities came my way. Playing
music for other artists makes me a 'sideman' and I did my best to do my best
for each artist I played for / with. I didn't move to Nashville to be a sideman
necessarily, but, thanks to my wife Judy, we moved to Nashville so I could be a
career musician. It was her idea.
Yeah, we moved to town
in 1988, took me until 2010 to figure out I wanted to make MY music, My terms.
Well, let me tell you, that was not an easy decision. I enjoy being a good
sideman, playing well for the 'artist' so they can be the best they can be on
stage... meaning not worrying about the guitar picker. I feel good about
offering that to the different artists I worked for / with. But now, after all
those dedicated years, I need to dedicate to ME. Try to convince folks who I
think I am - how good I think I am. THAT is the hard part. Well some of it
anyway.
Which brings me to my
soliloquy. I want to try and share what my life as a musician means to me. How
being an artist, performer, composer, producer, recording and touring for MY
musical efforts, and who and how good I think I am. Or not. Yeah, that.
It takes courage to
step in front of anyone and sing a song, play an instrument, share words /
lyrics, etc. In a sense, you're asking for affirmation, something to make your
courageous effort not feel so... naked - if you will. Before I moved to
Nashville to be a full-time musician, I played for smaller audiences for the
most part. Yes, there were a few bigger events, but they were the exception,
and nothing being played was my original material. And, my bandmates: family
and friends - were onstage also dealing with the same emotions and we handled
it as a team... I guess I was the 'captain' but only in spirit, and age. That
is different than what I do now.
In a 'leap of faith'
in 2010, Judy and I decided that my being a sideman was unhealthy. Physically
too, and maybe more importantly. But as a would-be artist, it was stopping my
growth and hindering what was meant to be, really. What was / is meant to be -
what IS that?
Do I have what it
takes to do the thing that the artists I've been a sideman for did / do and
have done for years / decades? I have desire. I have original musical ideas. I
have stories to tell, guitar techniques to share, develop and share. I want to
do what others do, but in my voice, my words, my music. My recordings. Now
what?
We ‘set sail’ at the
end of March 2010 for whatever destination would come our way. My way -
musically and career-wise. I had one gig on the calendar in 2010. One. It was
as a vocal instructor at a week-long music camp in TN. I was looking forward to
that. Well, the crash of 2008 hit the music business at the end of 2009 and
2010... so the music camp felt it in the number of students who didn't sign-up
for the week. My class was cancelled and so, there went my ONE gig for the
foreseeable future. Judy decided to help me, so she started calling folks and
trying to book gigs for me as a solo. I actually told her "good luck
honey, no one knows me as an artist, and you'll probably get a bunch of 'no
thanks'... sounds positive, eh?". Well the first call, she booked me a
gig. And she kept doing that, until the rest of 2010 had a good number of gigs
and I felt I could breathe! 2011 was even better calendar-wise. NOW I had to
bring it. Solo. Uno mano. Me. Reality and self check in the mirror, then opportunity.
Opportunity.
Opportunities. Bring it or go home. I started working on my songs, writing new
material (wrote 5 in one day), started imagining what my performance would be
like, what it needed to be. I'll be honest - initially, it was 'panic city'. I
had a few songs I had recorded solo and had some good comments and feedback for
those. So, I felt like I could at least work on it, improve on number of songs,
and start finding money for a new recording. Recording a solo CD. Well, that
took a while, a couple years. Hard to get folks to hire you without a
recording. But there were those who did, and I am so thankful for that. I'm
still working to do this... I feel like "I am more like I am now than I
was a while ago". And so it goes.
Let me back up for a
moment. Our wonderful daughter and son grew up and became independent / moved
out before all this going out on my own decision was made. I admit, I was a bad
'empty nester'... I knew I had to let go at some point, but I held on tight.
Wasn't good for them to fledge and to have a dad hanging on. I've apologized
for all that, but it was what is was. That said, my career change also was not
as hard to do because Judy and I were just us. No family to provide for, etc.
I continue to make
efforts to be a successful musician, singer, artist, songwriter, producer of my
own music, but to assist others in theirs as well. I work (record, tour) mostly
as a solo performer, but I've recorded and produced others' CDs, and have done
some short tours with a few efforts (Jim Hurst Trio, Claire Lynch Band) etc.
and I am having fun. Diverse is key.
Diversity. So now, I
am really working on my career in different ways. Keeping the calendar full is
a challenge for anyone doing this. If you are a superstar - the challenge is
when to book time off for yourself to go on vacation, etc. I wouldn't know much
about that. However, I do book off important family dates and events so I don't
miss out anymore. That only works if I know about the date early on, I
sometimes miss things that come up without much lead time.
Inspiration. It comes
when it does. A lyric, a melody, a groove, a guitar riff, banjo roll, mandolin
melody, bass line… and it hits me sometimes in the middle of the night (as it
was for my Open Window tune 'Alarm Clock'), or being tired facing a long drive
home in a foggy rain (my JHT-1 tune 'Keep Me Awake'), or my song for my mother
(JHT-1 song 'This Waltz Is For You') co written with Keith Little and Dawn
Kenney. But I can't tell you how many melodies and lyrics I failed to capture
that are now in the wind somewhere... wow. Case in point: I just recently had a
great 2 weeks in Ireland, Northern Ireland, and Germany, and arrived home for 1
1/2 days before heading to Canada for two weeks. I slept in my bed for one
night, and as I woke up - still snug and not wanting to arise yet, A cool
guitar tune started finding me, and I was digging the possibilities - but my
lazy backside didn't want to get up to grab my guitar and my recorder.
AAARRRGGGHHH! Gone. Well, not entirely, I did kinda recall this thing and
I'm working on it... thankfully!
One last thought. I
intend to be a musician until somehow or another I can't. Maybe God puts an end
to my playing, my ability to think, or brings me home. Either way, I feel very
blessed to have my guitar as my oldest friend, which introduced me to many,
many of my other best friends, and I desire to keep on keeping on.
Road Scholar? I think
so. (Recorded on my solo CD Looking Glass). Maybe not so much as so many others
including the guy I heard the song from first, Lee Roy Parnell, who co-wrote it
with a couple others. Maybe not ever as much as folks like Merle Haggard, or
Jerry Reed, or James Taylor... but in my own courses... I am that. I am a road
scholar. And with all the ups and downs, in and outs, and everything in
between, I'm good with that. I cherish it.
By Jim Hurst 2019 – All Rights Reserved